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You may be surprised to hear that at least 60 percent of bestsellers are ghostwritten. It never ceases to amaze me when respectable-appearing bloggers suggest that if you’re thinking about hiring a ghostwriter, ask to see a list of the books the ghostwriter has written. Even in an NPR interview, a "ghostwriter" rattles off the names of dozens of branded clients. Pardon me?
Since my first ghostwriting project in 1994, I’ve worked under the definition of ghostwriter as “one who writes for and in the name of another who is considered the author." My ghostwriting contracts put in place nondisclosure agreements (NDAs) with authors who trust that, as a "ghost," I remain invisible.
For obvious reasons, It’s more expensive to hire a ghostwriter than a collaborative writer who is partially compensated with cover real estate. I’m proud of all the books on which I've been privileged to collaborate. Yet, I admit to wishing my name had appeared on the cover of every book I've ghosted. That choice, ultimately, is a factor of an author's mindset, personal needs, or professional strategy. Until a client/author dissolves or terminates an NDA, I honor it.
So, please, don’t ask me for a list of books I’ve ghosted. Instead, let's discover how artfully I can turn your idea into a book.
The breath of Mother Earth is called sah-laugh-woun. It’s the most beautiful word in our language. When I go up to the mountain and the gentle breeze kisses the trees, it’s sah-laugh- woun. When I visit a waterfall and feel the cool mist, it’s the breath of the waterfall. I’ve always loved that, because everything has its breath. The breath of life of Mother Nature. The breath of life of water. The breath of life of our first born.
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CHAPTER ONE: "NO DRY RUN"
The sunrise such as the world had never seen began as a seed of reddish-purple light. In one-millionth of an eyeblink, the seed blossomed into a light not of this world, the light of a thousand suns in one.
When the eye-stabbing flash penetrated the goggles intended to shield him, the tail gunner thought he had been blinded. At the signal nearly two minutes earlier, Staff Sergeant George Robert Caron had lowered the dense Polaroids over his eyes and tested them. The bright morning sun had been reduced to an odd, faint purple blob. Nothing more.
Major Tom Ferebee spotted his aiming point, the Aioi Bridge, pressed the trigger of his Norden bomb sight, and calmly, but deliberately, announced “bomb away.”
At that moment “Little Boy” tumbled from the belly of the Enola Gay on its six-mile plummet earthward. Isolated by the blackness of his goggles, Caron counted the seconds after the bomb bay doors burst open.
Freed of its five-ton burden, the B-29 shot upward. Instantly, Colonel Paul Tibbets executed the well-practiced, evasive maneuver calculated to put a safe distance between his crew of twelve and the unknown effects of the blast. No one, not even the physicists responsible for creating the world’s first atomic weapon, could predict what its force would do to the specially modified plane. Or to a city of three hundred twenty-three thousand people. For Little Boy, there had been no dry run. Its deployment marked the first time in history a major weapon had gone into battle untested.
The thirty-third President of the United States had inherited a bloody war. The last thing Truman needed was a dud bomb. If the “gimmick” worked, he was sure it would bring Japan to her knees. If not in one devastating and demoralizing blow, then by another and another. He waited anxiously. The scientists who conceived this two-billion dollar baby and the pilot of the plane who had just delivered it also waited. Its intended victim lay waiting like the outstretched fingers of a
six-digit hand.
The seven watercourses of the Uta River fanned out gracefully around and between the fingers called Hiroshima, then
meandered lazily southwestward until, finally, their estuaries licked the
gaping mouths of the Seto Inland Sea.
Japan’s admirals and generals recognized Hiroshima's
waterways were among her greatest strengths. The city’s harbors eased
troop deployment, and industry lined the banks of its rivers. In their fitful
planning sessions, military strategists had designated Hiroshima as
provisional capital and headquarters for the nation’s defense—should
Tokyo have to be abandoned.
Already, they had established headquarters
of the Second Imperial Army and military support facilities within the four-
square-mile area that surrounded the Aioi Bridge.
This morning had begun no differently than any other. Japan's undernourished young soldiers, eager to die for their emperor, drilled
proudly and obediently in the courtyard of Hiroshima Castle. Wrinkled,
stooped old men fished from the banks of the muddy Uta. Even one fish
would help relieve the pain of hunger in their families’ bellies. School
children resumed their tasks from the day before, leveling more of
Hiroshima's flimsy wooden dwellings, shops, and fences to create broad fire
breaks that might save her, if and when she came under attack.
On this brilliant morning, August 6, I945, any one of her
citizens whose eyes turned skyward would have seen only the golden glint of
an aircraft, scarcely visible at thirty-one thousand feet.
Air-raid sirens,
which had cried wolf so frequently throughout the past months over a a
seemingly benign reconnaissance plane or two, had not yet screamed the
plane’s presence through the stirring streets.
Three times during the night and early hours they had wailed
their warning: B-san. B-san. The city’s weary people felt the effects of
another sleepless night.
Hiroshima’s pulse was rapid, its nerves frazzled.
Fathers and mothers wondered when the whining fire bombs that had
turned her sister cities into cinders would rain destruction on her. In their
restlessness, they had not dreamed their fair city had been reserved for
something else, something new, something unimaginable.
At 8:15:17 a.m., Hiroshima time, their wonderings ended.
In his shoulder-wide compartment, tail gunner Caron had been
counting. Forty-one . . . forty-two . . . Suddenly, without a sound, the
pinprick of energy inside the bomb transmuted into a full-blown explosion.
Light from a thousand suns crescendoed to a brightness that seemed to
illuminate the universe.
As though billions of years of-creation had suddenly and
inextricably reversed themselves, the sky ripped open. Within this
tumultuous, man-made cataclysm roiled unfathomable temperatures.
Just
as it had been programmed to do, the bomb released its might eighteen
hundred and ninety feet above the city. The explosion released fifty million
degrees Celsius, turning matter to energy, mass to ash. Its core reached
three hundred thousand degrees. At ground zero, directly below, there was
no running away from the fire and fury. Objects were no longer real. Most
ceased to exist. Trees, bicycles, tea pots, sleeping mats, houses, people.
Vanished. Vaporized. Only occasional eerie shadows on stone, imprinted
like photograms by the intense light, hinted the presence of once-living
beings.
Coursing eastward after its sharp right-turn dive, the Enola
Gay raced away from what was.
At the split second of detonation, the forward cabin lit up as
though hundreds of flash bulbs had been tripped all at once. Tibbets sensed
a galvanic tingle on his tongue, then a metal aftertaste reminiscent of lead.
When the sun exploded, Caron appeared like a negative
image—a solarized figure helplessly blinded. He winced from pain, then
ripped the goggles off his forehead. His retinas played tricks on him.
Everything was awash in brilliant yellow and white. Seconds played
themselves out in slow motion. Form and line gradually became more
distinct. Color flowed back into bleached-white surroundings.
Eight miles west of the city, at the home of a friend, Satoshi
Nakamura lingered over his newspaper. He savored another cup of tea.
Without warning, the east-facing windows shattered with a force so violent
that it threw him to the floor.
The reporter for the official government news
agency, Domei, picked himself up from the pool of glass and rushed outside.
He could not believe his eyes. Over Hiroshima writhed and twisted a
growing black cloud. Then it burst into a ball of flame, “like the instant
blossoming of a fantastic flower.”
Approximately the same distance away, Caron beheld the
spectacle, but from a unique perspective. Tibbets knew at that moment his
gunner’s compartment was the place to witness the unfolding drama. The
pilot waited for a description of the action below.
“The turret’s in the way. I can’t see anything yet,” Caron reported.
Abruptly, that changed. His body registered alarm as
apprehension swirled in his belly. His heart pounded like a jack hammer.
No human had ever witnessed the form that now threatened to engulf the fleeing plane, like some sinister plasma out of a science-fiction movie. The
giant, semi-transparent bubble, expanding rapidly like three-dimensional
ripples in a pool, was nearly upon them. He tried to scream a warning. It
was incoherent. He tried again. Just as his warning reached the crew’s ears,
the bubble of compressed, super-heated air smashed into the plane. The
aircraft bucked, then dropped like an elevator in free-fall from the tenth
floor to the first.
"Flak," Tibbets said instinctively, recalling vividly the violent
jolt of anti-aircraft fire over Europe. It felt and sounded like the familiar
German 88 mm shell.
The hefty Superfortress had been rocked not by flak, but by the
shock wave the crew had been warned to expect. Tibbets had remembered
almost the instant “flak” escaped his mouth. Four seconds after the first hit,
a second giant bubble, the “ricochet” of the first shock wave reflecting off
the surface of the earth, again chased them down.
“Here comes another one,” Caron loudly and clearly warned.
The second collision with the nearly invisible force bounced the plane less
violently than the first.
The tail gunner leaned closer to his wraparound windows. A
tremendous cloud rose from the ground, billowed past the protruding gun
turret and crept into his view. He was awestruck.
Still, duty pressed. In a
space smaller than an outhouse, he struggled with the unwieldy aerial
camera a photo officer had thrust at him just before takeoff. But where to
point it? The gun sight was in the way. He called over the intercom to
Tibbets and asked for a better angle. A five-degree turn to the left would do.
It would give him a clearer shot through his right side hatch.
“Describe What you see,” Tibbets prodded again.
Caron pressed his nose to the Plexiglas. Now, he could see the
entire live, churning thing. In the hushed waist and forward cabin, everyone listened. His breathy, staccato words spilled out and flooded the
intercom.
“A giant column of smoke . . . a purple-gray turbulent
mass . . . white at the top and fiery red core right down to the base.”
He
remembered Captain William Parsons’ term during their preflight briefing—a mushroom, he called the umbrella-like crown that was expected
over the cloud’s column.
“It’s like bubbling molasses down there . . . the mushroom is
spreading out . . . it’s nearly level with us and climbing. . . . very black, but has a
purplish tint . . . the base of the mushroom looks like a heavy undercast that
is shot through with red . . . fires are springing up everywhere . . . like flames shooting out of a huge bed of coals . . . smoke is billowing out into the
foothills . . . it’s like a peep into Hell.”
“Count the fires, Bob.” It was the perfectionist in Tibbets that
thought he must keep track even of that. But there were too many. After
fifteen, Caron stopped counting.
Tibbets turned the B-29 broadside. The crew gasped. Rising
boldly before them was the culmination of eleven months’ training and the
efforts of one hundred thousand workers back home, although the crew
would not know that detail until Tibbets revealed it on the flight home. The
pilot cautiously skirted the cloud. Like a living tower of hands made by
school boys stacking palm over hand, one on top of another until there were
no more hands to stack, it grew.
Thirty thousand, forty thousand, forcing
its curling crown of dust, vapor, and heat fifty thousand feet into the blue
above Hiroshima.
"My God, what have we done?” The guttural whisper passed
through co-pilot Captain Robert Lewis’ lips almost without his knowing he
had spoken. The utterance was neither a lament nor a hackneyed response.
It was not self-condemning. Rather, the expression came from some
shadowy, alien part of himself he had not yet come to know. It
acknowledged the breadth of collective responsibility. It searched for
answers to the incomprehensible. Searched for questions that had been
asked only in fiction and poetry. It wondered without judgment at the power
to create and the power to destroy in the blink of an eye.
Just as suddenly, came a quite different thought. This could be
the end of the war!
Caron flashed a reassuring smile at the dark-haired beauty in
the photograph as if she were in the tiny tail compartment with him. And, of
course, she was. He had slipped Kay’s picture into the clear plastic pocket
over his oxygen chart, and it dangled on a little chain beside him. On the
reverse side was a snapshot of his baby daughter, Judy. Especially now,
they were the most gorgeous sight in the world. And if the ominous black
cloud that loomed above the Enola Gay convinced the Japanese to
surrender, he would soon be with them.
With little elbow room to finagle the cumbersome K-20 camera,
the gunner aimed again at that towering, still-climbing thing. He squeezed
the shutter trigger. Over the roar of the engines he heard the loud kerthunk
as the vacuum assembly's piston sucked the thin film firmly against the pressure plate. He shifted position as best as he could and squeezed the
trigger again and again. Photography, second to airplanes, had been his
passion, but he could not have guessed that the documentary images from
this last-minute assignment would make front pages around the world.
Right now, there were too many other things to think about. What he was
seeing seemed so “unreal.”
As he fired off frames, his mind drifted with the cloud. He
imagined scientists’ excitement when their experiments revealed that an
infinitesimally small particle called an atom could be “split,” and from that
unnatural act enormous quantities of energy would be released.
Since childhood he had taken things apart and put them back
together. He had to know how and why things worked as they did.
For
hours on end at Wendover’s base library, he would contentedly lose himself
in physics books. It was in that remote, sandy, northwest corner of Utah,
brushing Nevada, during those long months of training for this day, that he
had been introduced to a famous Berkeley physicist and his atom-smasher.
Now all that sleight of hand had come together in the form of a cloud.
Tibbets was only peripherally thinking about atoms. With the
dangerous evasive maneuver successfully behind him, he gave himself over
to the still-rising column and collided with a rhetorical question: Had such
unbridled force set in motion a new dawn? Mercifully, the immediate task of
gathering more mission data sufficed for an answer. He shared his
prescience with no one. Instead, as though telepathic, he voiced the words
in Lewis’ mind: “I think we’ve won the war.”
Almost as an afterthought, he remembered the wire recorder on
board. He asked each crewman to express his thoughts about the event they
had just witnessed. “For posterity,” he said, adding, “Watch your
language.”
One by one, they did. Shumard, Stiborik, Nelson, Beser, Lewis,
Parsons, Jeppson, Caron, Ferebee, Van Kirk, Tibbets, Duzenbury. Where
were the words to explain what they had just seen? Or how they felt? Well-
worn phrases spilled into the microphone connected to their intercom. Amazing. Stupendous. Spectacular.
Each of them added a
commentary about the enormity of it all, its inevitability for ending the war . . . surely, it would end the war.
The crew could never be absolutely certain of their exact words
that morning. They would never hear them again. Neither would any high-
ranking government official. Once the wire recorder was placed in the hands
of an information officer on Tinian, the small island in the Pacific they had
left just six hours earlier, it would mysteriously disappear.
Bombardier Ferebee and weaponeer specialist Navy Captain Parsons were in no mood to be bogged down in reverie. Parsons needed to
prepare a detailed strike report. He wiped his broad forehead. The
President was waiting. So were top brass on Tinian. Tibbets already had prepared the short message they wanted to hear:
CLEAR CUT, SUCCESSFUL IN ALL RESPECTS.
VISIBLE EFFECTS GREATER THAN TRINITY.
HIROSHIMA. CONDITIONS NORMAL IN AIRPLANE
FOLLOWING DELIVERY. PROCEEDING T0 REGULAR BASE.
Private First Class Richard Nelson radioed the pilot’s brief
strike report. Then he transmitted Parsons’ more detailed, coded message to Guam for the eyes of Major General Thomas Farrell, chief deputy to General Leslie Groves, bomb project commander.
Little remained to be done. The radioactive cloud continued to
drift menacingly toward them. Tibbets swung the Enola Gay southward
toward Tinian onto the flight path the Allies had named the “Hirohito
Highway,” after the Emperor himself.
Junior, as Caron nicknamed the nineteen-year-old Nelson, monitored the radio on the long return flight. Every few minutes Captain Lewis pestered him. “Any reports yet of Japan’s surrender?”
It was too
soon for such a breakthrough. Furthermore, stunned Japanese officials were issuing no statements.
The crew also fell silent. Tibbets lifted the oppressive stillness.
“Hey, Bob. How was the ride back there?”
Once, on a practice
run, the Colonel had nosed a B-29 into the same dive-turn maneuver with
robust assertiveness. The “g” forces plastered the tail gunner against the compartment’s frame and made him feel like “the last man on a giant ‘crack the whip.’”
“Better than the quarter ride on the Coney Island Cyclone, Colonel.”
“Just pay me the twenty-five cents when we land.”
“Sorry, Colonel. You’ll have to wait till payday.”
Harry S. Truman crowded the microphones clustered in front
of him. In the few months since he had assumed office, his Missouri drawl
had become familiar to radioland listeners. Now, the President was seconds
away from the most earth-shaking, electrifying message any political leader
had ever delivered.
"The world will note that the first atomic bomb was dropped on Hiroshima, a
military base. We won the race of discovery against the Germans. We have
used it in order to shorten the agony of war . . . to save the lives of thousands
and thousands of young Americans. We shall continue to use it until we
completely destroy Japan’s power to make war."
“The first atomic bomb was dropped.” It was an assemblage
of words that had never before been spoken. Now, all at once, Truman was
revealing to a startled nation that the United States had developed a secret,
revolutionary new weapon and, although it had not been ready to use on
Hitler, its deployment against Japan could end the war and save countless
thousands of young lives.
That was what mothers at home had been praying for.
Coursing eastward after its sharp right-turn dive, the Enola
Gay raced away from what was. At the split second of detonation, the forward cabin lit up as
though hundreds of flash bulbs had been tripped all at once. Tibbets sensed
a galvanic tingle on his tongue, then a metal aftertaste reminiscent of lead.
When the sun exploded, Caron appeared like a negative
image—a solarized figure helplessly blinded. He winced from pain, then
ripped the goggles off his forehead. His retinas played tricks on him. Everything was awash in brilliant yellow and white. Seconds played
themselves out in slow motion. Form and line gradually became more
distinct. Color flowed back into bleached-white surroundings. Eight miles west of the city at the home of a friend, Satoshi
Nakamura lingered over his newspaper. He savored another cup of tea.
4:30 p.m., Wednesday, 8 August, I945
Dear Bob,
So, the Carons are on the “front page.” And lil Annie is still on her feet to tell
about it. There’s so much been happening since 11 o’clook last night (here’s
another reporter). First, Bob, I am so darn proud of you that the lump in
my throat is like a watermelon, and Dad, too. He had to stay home today,
too much was happening. I hope you won’t mind anything we might have
said; it has no bearing on your secret mission, because we really didn’t
know. I just had my usual hunches, or hunch, ever since I heard the news on
Monday about the bomb, I was writing to you at the time. Then last night
, Gabriel Heater said “The B-29 that dropped the atomic bomb was piloted by
Col. Tibbets of Florida.” Then I knew, so I stayed up till the 11 o’clock news
came on. That’s when your name was announced; that’s when the phone
started ringing, and it hasn’t stopped since. Most of the pictures I had are
being used, they are all over the front pages. Do you mind, Bob? After all,
you are a world-wide famous person along with your gang. I only hope Kay
is O.K. I think I will try and call her tonight. Don’t imagine she heard it
last night. They all asked me for pictures of Judy. I said I didn’t have any
yet. No doubt Kay has new ones, and they will ask her there for any. Dad
was asleep. I had to wake him, and it goes without saying I was not the
calmest person in the world, because I didn’t know you all were safe until a woman reporter from Newsday told me you were. Lynbrook says they are
all proud of you. They started calling us to tell us so last night. Dad is buying
all the papers to send to you, also Kay. Some of the “copied” news items in
the city are balled up; I guess you can see that on reading them. Am making
stew, so have to make the dumplings now. So long, God Bless you and keep
you safe.
Love,
Mother
Excerpt from Fire of a Thousand Suns
By Charlotte Meares
Copyright © 1995 Charlotte Meares